College [still] sucks.
1. But Max, you're meeting so many new people?
Yeah, I am, lots and lots of people.
The thing is, I'm meeting people, not making friends.
2. Max, you love you're classes - they're so fun?
WRONG.
I don't think I've ever hated my classes more than I do right now.
You see, I'm used to this thing called "cause and effect"
For example,
If you study then you will get a decent grade.
However, In college I've been introduced to this new thing called "It doesn't matter how much you study, you still won't get the grade you want."
It works a lot better - because it keeps you all alone in your dorm or at the library, late into the night, with no human contact - so instead of making friends with your own species, you're making friends with certain tables and chairs and getting mad at them when your "spot" is taken by someone else.
3. Math - I always thought I was pretty okay at math.
Nope.
On the last test, I studied a lot - a lot, a lot - and I got a not-so-good grade.
So naturally, when test number two rolled around I did everything I could, to ensure that I would get a better score.
I even went to Tutoring Zone - and paid - to make double sure that I understood everything.
and I thought I did.
Well. It paid off on the multiple choice because I got one more question correct than I did on Test 1. But on the long response I got one more question wrong than I did on Test 1.
So if you're good at math, you just realized that I got one point higher on the multiple choice and one point lower on the extended response - but what does this mean?
It means I got the SAME EXACT SCORE.
Are you serious?!
4. Psychology - oh Psychology.
There is so much hatred here - I feel it best not to say too much.
Let's just leave it with this:
I pulled an all nighter to study for my mid-term.
I was taking that test, and I felt GOOD, like a no-less-than-a-high-B-good.
I got an 80.
an 80.
an eighty.
I studied too much and for too long for an 80.
5. Institute
I am now the publicity VP for the Institute Council.
yeah, funny sense of humor He has.
6. Religion Professor
Ever sense he battered the LDS religion, I've had no patience for this guy.
He just reads from some paper on his podium - and he reads it too fast for me to write notes.
He reads it fast so that he sounds as if he's quoting it from memory
It makes me so angry.
and on top of all of that - he makes his tests super hard? what? This is a gen-ed? really?
7. College will get better. These will be the greatest times of your life.
Really? - these are the times of my life.
This is what I'm going to look back on and think - those were the days?
This is what I'm going to look back on and think - those were the days?
8. Pegasus.
Someone stole my bike.
I parked it at the church before I left for Eva's this weekend - double checking that I had locked it to the pole - and when I came back he was gone.
Who steals a bike?
yeah he was in great condition - and was a beautiful coat of cherry red
but the left brake was broken and I took the front light off so that it wouldn't get stolen.
oh the irony.
Fine - I'll list some good things.
here:
1. My bed is comfortable
2. The weather isn't SO unbearably hot anymore
3. I'm going to continue studying my life away
4. I've made a few new friends, kind of [it's a miracle]
5. I'm sitting in my "spot" right now in the library
6. We don't have school on Friday
7. I love mochi's Taro flavor - it can make any "D" feel like a "B-"
Let's hear it for College!
you will learn how to choose better classes. just remember "this too shall pass" and you will look back on these days and smile, you won't remember the stress, only that you were stressed. You will remember staying up with your friends, weekend trips, visiting Eva, the feeling of Christmas on campus...those are the things that really make college. Love you!
ReplyDeleteCollege will be one of the greatest times of your life, not because you made fifty million friends or were in fifty thousand clubs and everybody loved you and everything worked out, but because you get to learn about yourself and how to be alone and how to interact in a new environment. As much as we all love our comfort zone (mine is sleeping in my mom's bed and her doing my laundry and making dinner and the cats on my bed and spongebob marathons), the world around us is changing, and we can't put our foot down and say 'this is how I want things to be' because that's just not how things work.
ReplyDeleteSo college is really a lot about having a sucky time. But learning from that sucky time.
When I started college I thought it would be so awesome because I could reinvent myself as a normal girl and be popular and go on lots of dates and then I ended up falling into my same old patterns of crazy. I didn't really feel like I had actual friends until the Spring/Summer of my second year.
Crap happens. Eat ice cream and keep going.
Love you lots.
Remember my favorite song that I love to dance/sing to when it comes on? It goes like this...
ReplyDelete"SHHHHHH...IT HAPPENS."
Your attitude is what makes life go in whichever way you want it to...sorry about Pegasus (never understood you guys naming your "vehicles")-maybe you can find a replacement on Craig's list. Meanwhile you really have to see the humor in all of this and remember that all of this makes for some pretty good blogging! Oh, and about that religion prof--you can rate him later so no one else gets sucked into thinking he has any real substantial and objective material.
Max! I'm so sorry to hear it's not going as well as you'd like it to! We can have a 'we hate college' party when I come home in December. I'll even pretend to hate college for you!
ReplyDeleteSkype me sometime soon please? I'd love to see your face and hear from you... :)
I miss you a lot! & I would really really really like to hear from you soon!
Don't worry, keep your chin up, and press forward!
Love ya!
Bailey
you don't even know me, but i know your sister and saf (she was my roommate--you've met me in passing before when you were at our apartment and making pancakes or some such deliciousness). i read your blog because it's brilliant and i hope that doesn't make me seem like a stalker (i'm really not...much...just like to look out for the people who my people like/love).
ReplyDeletewhat saf said is true. but here's also the thing--the first semester is always the worst. you don't know what you're doing, so the learning curve is steepest. aleksi's right--next time, you'll ask around so you won't end up with the evil teachers or, if they're hard, they'll at least be in the subjects that you care about/will be willing to help you. but there's just something inherently horrifying about the first semester of any new program.
but everybody's right--it gets better. it gets better because YOU get better, because if you let it (which i think you are), you learn that you are being refined and changed and shaped and molded into the person you never knew you could ever be. and then you look back at the moments inbetween the mundane studying and the stressful assignments and you see how different you really are.
this takes time, though. in the midst of it, all you can do is put one foot in front of the other, be grateful for things like mochi, family, and the gospel, and do the best you can do. every day that best will be a little bit different--but so long as you're doing it, you'll be blessed.
there's a lot of people pulling for you, even if you don't know it. with that power of positive thinking behind you, you can't be anything but successful.
also, i thought that flyer was possibly the cutest thing i've ever seen. you think i'm just saying that to make you feel better, but i genuinely thought that on tuesday night. you got style, and i dig that.
thank you!
ReplyDeleteOh my sweet Max! You are hilarious! I loved reading all of that. It makes me reminisce about how crappy it really was! When it gets hard just think of me and how much better you're doing than I did there! LOL Be proud of that D! That was one of my better grades! :)
ReplyDeleteAnd you can always come here to escape!