Have you ever done something
that you just broke down and cried afterward?
It was after my IB photo exam.
I presented all my work,
all my photos,
all my projects,
and I just knew,
I knew that I did it.
That I got a 7.
After I packed everything up
and started to drive home,
I lost it.
more like - bawled.
It was quite the sight
I just felt overwhelmed
everything that I had worked towards for the past two years was over.
and I had explained everything so well.
I knew I did my best
I showed the examiner all the heart I put into each project.
and it was over.
Just like that.
When I got my results back in July, I ended up getting a 7.
Which is the highest score an IB student can receive.
I did it.
I felt the same feeling, the feeling of great accomplishment, like I had a real talent.
And so it's hard for me to describe why, after all that I've done,
after my passion for photography and creating has grown,
after starting to believe that I have some sort of skill or talent
that I am choosing to study Occupational therapy.
I know it doesn't add up.
I do know this though:
1. I love creating. I love photography. But I guess it's just not for me to pursue right now.
2. Like Joseph Smith read James 1:5 and it led him to ask which of all the sects was right, I too have been prompted to ask God.
"If any man lacks wisdom, let him ask of God"
If anyone lacks wisdom right now, it's me.
This question of who I am to become has been on my mind since the day I sat down to take that photo exam.
I've changed my mind more times than I can count.
One day it's one thing and the next, it's something else.
So I sincerely asked God.
and I've received my answer.
3. I know He's always there.