oh. my. gosh.
What a week. What a stressful, long, exhausting, sickening, scary WEEK.
I have never been so emotionally exhausted as I am right now. My schedule has caused me more heart ache and pain than any girl that's ever crossed my path. Just this week alone, I've change my schedule more times than sanity should allow. I've gone from chemistry to biology to online biology to intro to statistics back to chemistry to geography to history of american religion. I had a meltdown, i couldn't decide what my last six credits should be because i wanted to stay on course for my major but i also wanted to take classes that would help me get into the college routine [yeah, i guess that does mean the easy classes] - but they're still college courses.
I felt like a squirrel that had just been half run over by a car and was waiting to be put out of it's misery. I could just pretend to trip right in front of a bus - it would look like an accident - and i would be put out of my misery, but that's not how i deal with my problems. So i vented - and vented - annoyed a lot of people - and then went and scheduled an appointment with my adviser [the BEST decision i've made all week], she really helped me understand what i have to do and the classes i have to take in order to be competitive for the upper division pre-physcial therapy program.
My schedule is now set - i went to all my classes today - and i liked them! i'm so excited. It's still going to be a lot of work - 16 credits [vomit] - but i can do it. [p.s. thanks to everyone who put up with me during this stressful time]
Things I've realized this week:
1. No matter how close you are to the road, a bus will only hit you if you catch the driver by surprise.
2. It rains a lot in Gainesville and if you don't have an umbrella you will get wet.
3. When you are sad and feeling depressed DON'T listen to sad music - it does not help
[before, when i lived at home, i used to like watching sad movies and listening to depressing songs because i liked to feel sad, i know that's weird - but that's not the point - I was sad this week thinking about chesney and i listened to my sad music and i had to turn it off because that one ijustwanttogohome feeling came back.
4. All dogs, no matter the size, remind me of chesney.
5. i miss summer - a lot.
Things i took for granted while i was home:
1. Chesney's smiling face every time i came home
2. Sleeping in my own bed
3. Having a laundry room on the same floor as the rest of the house.
4. Vacuuming [ok i'm kidding]
5. Not having to walk everywhere, including 8 flights of stairs when the elevator is too crowded.
Things I've realized this week:
1. No matter how close you are to the road, a bus will only hit you if you catch the driver by surprise.
2. It rains a lot in Gainesville and if you don't have an umbrella you will get wet.
3. When you are sad and feeling depressed DON'T listen to sad music - it does not help
[before, when i lived at home, i used to like watching sad movies and listening to depressing songs because i liked to feel sad, i know that's weird - but that's not the point - I was sad this week thinking about chesney and i listened to my sad music and i had to turn it off because that one ijustwanttogohome feeling came back.
4. All dogs, no matter the size, remind me of chesney.
5. i miss summer - a lot.
Things i took for granted while i was home:
1. Chesney's smiling face every time i came home
2. Sleeping in my own bed
3. Having a laundry room on the same floor as the rest of the house.
4. Vacuuming [ok i'm kidding]
5. Not having to walk everywhere, including 8 flights of stairs when the elevator is too crowded.
Friday night - and nothing to do - so goes the college life.
I'm glad your adviser actually helped- mine was a Ph.D student who just looked at me like I was stupid and was clearly confused on what I was confused about. What's your final schedule?
ReplyDeleteOnce everyone gets into a rhythm of life, the elevator usually isn't too crowded. After the first week I only took the stairs twice for the rest of the year- once when the elevators were broken and once when my roommate decided we should "be more active" (which lasted until we got to our floor and wobbled into our dorm).
Also, in case you weren't aware, don't leave your clothes in the laundry room! Sit with them and do homework or something. People totally jack stuff out of the washers/dryers all the time because it's college and people are gheddo.
ahaha, yeah tomorrow i'm planning on doing hw while i wait for my laundry. my final schedule is mac1147 [pre-calc], intro to health science, psy2012[general psychology], geography of a changing world? or something like that, and history of american religion.
ReplyDeleteGlad that things are coming together--you are forgiven your moments of insanity--please don't make a habit of them! Ummm--you forgot to say that you petitioned HF for help.
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